Lyrics

The ceiling hasn’t changed this time
The monitor hums that familiar line
It says I’m still here
And I’m disappointed full of fear

Why does my body keep fighting me
I keep thinking I can be free
Then the shock wakes me up
And their touch isn’t enough

I thought this would be the last time
No matter how high I try to climb
The chains pull me back into this death of a body
They’re happy they saved me but is anybody out there anybody

I’m still breathing again
Brought back from death back in chains
They can’t see them but they are there
And the walls again just stare

Why can’t they see I want to be free
They think I’m in a pond but I’m lost at sea
They hook me to machines keep me breathing
But I’m slowly sinking

They think they’re saving a soul
But living won’t make me whole
I’ve got chains a body full of pain
Helping me live doesn’t bring them gain

So unhook the machines turn away
Please stop saving me it’s not saving at the end of the day
They try to get me to open up show the pain
But I’ve rehearsed this act too well so I always stay in my lane

Force a smile keep up the act
Hide the fear the impact
No matter how hard I try to be brave
They repeat the same words they always gave

I’m still breathing again
Brought back from death back in chains
They can’t see them but they are there
And the walls again just stare

Why can’t they see I want to be free
They think I’m in a pond but I’m lost at sea
They hook me to machines keep me breathing
But I’m slowly sinking

But this time feels different
A voice calls from the distance
My eyes burn my hands shake
They say we understand and that’s enough to take

Handed me a piece of paper a number
They say it could stop me going under
There are others like me
And opening up might finally set me free

I’m still breathing again
Brought back from death back in chains
They can’t see them but they are there
And the walls again just stare

Why can’t they see I want to be free
They think I’m in a pond but I’m lost at sea
They hook me to machines keep me breathing
But I’m slowly sinking

I’m scared to try
But I’ll try to live not die
If they’re trying to keep me breathing
Then maybe I’ll start believing